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Darling Fudge,
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My life if worth it b'coz I have you !
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Life is one crazy thing ... don't you think ... & I guess in all the confusion of trying to live life we forget that what really counts is the better things in life. Honestly speaking, sometimes I feel like I am part of the rat race as well. And it is in those times when I forget whats really important to me. So Rajat, this is for you.... just to tell you that I am soooooooo glad that you are a part of my life & just to let you know something else that I have never shared with you before.... Every night before I go to sleep, I look up & thank God for sending you my way. Coz you are by far the best thing that ever happened to me ! And I love you more & more each day just for doing what you do best... being yourself !
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Hold my hand & lets walk down memory lane....
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Boy ... I still remember the time we first met.... You were in this silly blue checked shirt & you walked up to me like this big bond & said in that oh-so-familiar tone "Hi ! Remember me ?" I never knew when I answered you then that very soon you were to become a part of all my tomorrows.I don't believe though that our first movie together was Dunston Checks In. What the hell was the connection ? I mean... gawd man... you should have taken me for some nice mushy movie or something.... just kidding.Oh boy ! 2 & a half months of living without you were really bad. I still remember the first time you called from Amsterdam or something & I wasn't at home to take your call & then when I got home & was told I missed your call ... I hated myself for going out...But I loved it when you called later & you said you missed me & that you loved me...Hey ! Another date I will never forget was the 23rd of August 1996. The rain, your car, you me all alone....ooooooohh.... that was the most perfect setting & then you did just the perfect thing.... you kissed me (and the funny thing is you never stopped till date... not that I would want you to)You had a li'l birthday get together at your house that year ! And while everyone was busy eating their lunch you & I were playing footsie under the table... till ofcourse you decided that your grand-father wanted to see me....Our first night out was when your crazy cousin was in town. Actually initially I thought he was a total nutcase but gradually he came thru as a damn sweet person. That was very much the way I felt for you... Initially I thought you were this insane little boy... but the more I've gotten to know you, the more I realise that you are an amazing person.You were with me on my birthday that year too. That was my first birthday that you & I spent together. And you know what was so special about that whole day... that you just merged into my friend circle. You almost hosted my party with me & I loved every bit of it.We even spent Christmas together man.... what more could I ask for. 6th of Feb... man I spent days planning that heart shaped cake for you but the loook on your face finally made all the effort just worth it !I think that one year was like a dream. Everything was perfect...just the way I wanted my relationship to be. And then things started going wrong. But somewhere deep down Rajat, I know that things are going to be just perfect again. I know they will. Have you ever thought of the number of times we've had the opportunity to break up & its never happened. It makes me believe that this relationship is just meant to be !
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OUR NUMEROUS FIGHTS & THE GLORIOUS MAKE-UPS
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So.. do you think we could set a record with the number of fights we've had ? I certainly think so. But I am sooooooo glad that we still are together.Thats the best thing about our relationship... that it never allows us to drift apart. Everytime we start to move away, it brings us back. Most of the time, I admit, the credit goes to you.Rajat, I have to admit, I have a bad temper. But I have to let you in on a little secret. I can't do without you. So everytime I give you this shit of 'I can live without you & I don't want you in my life', its my inflated ego talking. And don't you ever listen to what it has to say.... coz it is one big liar.Believe me Rajat, I need you more than I need anything else in this whole world. Nothing in this world makes me as happy as you do, even though sometimes you may feel otherwise. If you notice, in those times there is something not right between us. I just hope you understand that you mean just about everything to me. In 3 years I think by far the most important thing you've given me is the gift of a best friend. I love the way we relate to each other... the way we talk everything over even in times when things are not going right. I love the way we resolve everything just by being together.I know that we've been thru some real trying times & I also know that I haven't really made life a lot easier for you in those times... But I just hope you understand that I am working on it.. I know you might not believe me.... but I am working on it... I love you too much & I don't ever want to lose you....So for all those times when I've made you feel like 'shit' Rajat, I am sorry.... I never intended it to be that way.... I don't mean to get angry with you & I hope I never ever will.... I love you Rajat... & I look forward to spending my whole life with you.... just you !
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